Day 7; driving westbound on US12, somewhere between Helena and Missoula, Montana; July 15, 2010
As I type this, we’re approaching some new range of mountains, the Family Birzer moving continuously toward the Pacific, slowly and steadily following in the footsteps and paddle strokes of the Corps of Discovery and its leaders, William Clark and Meriwether Lewis. Though I’m not looking at a map at the moment, I’m assuming this new line, growing larger and larger in our approach, is actually the beginning of the Rocky Mountains. We’ve already crossed through the Little Belts, the Judiths, and the Big Belts. Each grows in drama and commands the attention of the mortal.
Through our many miles, we have encountered the friendliest of people; grasses, tall and short and everything in between; sunrises, light, and color beyond compare; the most outrageous of claims on billboards; coffee shops and natural co-ops and granola dispensers; monuments to the cultural and demographic expansion of the American frontier, some patriotic and sincere, some jingoistic and self serving; geologic manifestations dating back millions of years and archeological remains nearly two thousand years old; herds of wooly headed and horned bison; corrals of horses; re-enactors, museum interpreters, and naturalists who possess the deepest of knowledge and passion for their subjects, finding boundless energy in answering a million niggling questions; statues to white men, Indian women, Newfoundland dogs, and American buffalo; dolls of our first progressive president; thriving forests and diseased spruces; lodgings ranging from the tacky and putrid to the classy and brilliant; warning signs and icons smacking of the worst patronization; pride, vanity, and haste in the young, the middle aged, and the old; and an excellence in architecture, service, community, and ability.
The Family Birzer has, in short, seen much of America rarely seen by the rest of America, but much that is simply common in humanity, east, west, north, south, gentile, Jew, male, female, bond, and free.
The Family Birzer has hiked across Pishkuns and next to seemingly uncontrollable mountain streams. It has stood on cliffs of great heights, and it has surveyed that which it has crossed. In all, the Family Birzer has demonstrated a willingness to explore far beyond a father’s hopes and desires. On one such hike, I took the older children on, exploring a steep precipice, while Dedra waited with the two youngest, each needing a rest. The five year old, Harry said: “I know I won’t get left behind, I’m one of the important Birzers. So are you, mommy.”
As we approach this new range somewhere between Helena and Missoula on a U.S. 12 that seems to have little in common with its Jonesville, Allen, and Quincy counterpart, learned English descriptives begin to fail. How many times over the past week have I thought: majestic; sublime; overwhelming; profound; Edenic; fantastic; pristine; angelic; beatific; sacramental; sublime; overwhelming . . . . In the end, I realize, I’m not capable of giving proper words to what I see and feel beyond trite statements, made by many long before I did. Language, at least for me, fails in the vastness and diverse scope of the American West. The landscape has changed almost moment by moment since we crossed into North Dakota so many days ago. High, low, ascent, descent, curve, high, low, ascent, descent, curve, high--all movements experienced in this immense landscape.
Through it all, I can only write with absolute certainty this one thing: my soul has been moved throughout the West of North Dakota and Montana, even when my inherited language fails me. Indeed, my soul soars, even where my logic, education, and training desert me.
I can also state this with some certainty, but a certainty not of the reasonable faculties: around every corner, over every incline, across every stream, through every stand of aspens and ponderosa pines, I expect to see my relatives who have left this world smiling at me, through the very thin veil that separates time from eternity. I see my maternal grandmother, maternal grandfather, cousin, and daughter looking back at me, reassuringly. Somehow, they reside in a place that perfects the near perfection I glimpse here.
This is all I can write with any clarity in the bounds of this world, though I, with Tolkien’s Niggle, stand squarely on it.
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